I won’t shed one more tear in knowing that we won’t be together for even a single day of my life. Our relationship has been a stormy and after years of having you in my life I felt the need of not accepting the bitter reality of our relationship and move on with my life. I wanted to pour out my feelings, emotions and thoughts about why I am leaving this relationship, I know it will take me months to overcome the hurt of not having you in my life but I will gather all the bits of broken pieces of my life and glue them together.
Though I have not lost faith in love; but the next time around I will not let the other person curb my needs, my emotions and my dreams. This chapter of my life is closed for ever; because “being sorry” has not been enough for all the breakdowns I have suffered from your end. Before you came to my life, my life was just about receiving love from my family and my friends, after you entered my life I started to feel what love actually is. The sense of caring and loving someone unconditionally was something which I never did for anyone except you. Though we are parting ways now, still I won’t have any regrets of loving you with all my heart.
I felt a need of writing a goodbye letter to my boyfriend because this letter will remind me of what I put myself through and why I can’t carry on anymore. The conflict between both of us has always been of you not caring towards me. I expected honesty and love from you; but every day your lies hurt me; and it pushed me away from trusting you to be my life partner. I would choose to have my individual entity than living with a person who disappoints me every day. I can’t pretend to the whole world out there that I am in love with you; because after a while when you get hurt far too many times it’s better to be on your own and carry on.
Your expression of love was just saying “I love you” but you never proved it with your actions that you actually love me. You have lost the respect in my eyes of the number of lies you tell me every day, how you just focus on your desires and luxurious buying and never even consider what I “need”. You would crib about missing “romance” in the relationship but you would never choose to show gestures of care and love. I sincerely wish you to have someone else who shares the same dreams, same perspective towards life.
Noel
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